That’s the problem with putting others first; you’ve taught them you come second.
read that, again.
things I need to beat into my brain
Who did that to you? Who fucked you up so bad, emotionally and mentally that you’ve completely shut down anyone who tries to help you. You don’t talk about your feelings, you push kind people away, and you let negative people in. You refuse to open up and let someone love or care about you. Who fucking did that to you?
I know exactly who (via hatemeforbeingme)
I am ugly, ugly within and ugly skin. I do not love without hate, I have no reasoning and all I see is myself and the dark side of things I see nothing else. And I don’t even think I want to.
11261) I feel like I’m many different people. I can’t even remember what I was like before all this. It’s just a blur.